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MY FUTURE SPOUSE

I am an unmarried woman and I am as I am... who is waiting for the future spouse like other many women in the world. But I have not yet an idea about him. I have only my dreams for him. And still my heart and eyes are searching for him everywhere. I am sure that soon I am going to meet him. And nowadays, I feel like he is coming close to my life. May be I have failed in my life to find out him in my place. So, I believe that he may be living far somewhere in this vast world. My heart says he will meet me through any types of media or something. And I know his soul will try to contact me too. Suppose if God gives me an opportunity to contact him in the virtual world of communication such as internet, e-mail, etc. And if he loves me, wants meet me and come to me. Then my fear is this…. how I will meet him in real life? And if I can, how I will face him and introduce myself? I love to imagine that meeting this way….

One day early in the morning… when it is still dark outside and very quiet. The sound of a message ring is disturbing my silent sleep. I immediately see a few lines of short message that reads like this …

“Hi, my dear, I decide to coming to see you today and I will arrive at your airport after 3 hours by now, I am waiting for my plain take off. Could you pick me up, dear? See you soon there..”

OMG..!!!

          Can I believe this person? I know him for the last 6 months. He was very gentle and kind to me in all conversation we had. He knows that I have very determined mind too. My heart starts to beat so fast with mixed feelings, I am confused, and the same time happy too! I am feeling all those together in my blood stream now. I am trying to be calm. First, I drink some water and I take a deep breath then reading that short message again and again in my mobile phone. Better I go to see my best friend Jamila who stays next to my room. I am both exciting and fear to share this to her.

        I reached her room, knocked her door and call her slowly. “Jamila, may I come in?”, she opens and greeted me with excitement, seeing me early in the morning. She gives me a chair, I sit and trying to think how to start my present situation. When she insists me to say something many time I say.

       “Jamila….I have a new friend from abroad, a man. We met on internet and later we became good friends. Sorry, I didn’t tell you. Because I never expected that he is the one for me. I think he likes me a lot loves me a lot. But believe me I never thought that he wants to meet   me very soon like this.”

She looks very exciting to hear my trembling words. Then, I am showing his message to her. Curiously she reads it well then looks happy for me too! Then, she starts ask me about him. I tell her only few things about him. Because I don’t want waste the time.

After a while listening me she says, “I think he seems like a good person. Oh dear… I want to go with you, but I have my exam this morning, so you should go and only see him for some minutes and please come back immediately! OK?? Fortunately, the airport is very near. Please take care and call me every 5 minutes or I will call you. Ok?? ”

I felt like now she acts like my mother. I know she loves me and she is great too. But in the same time, I am really in shock too! I thought I could go with her. Oh, what should I do now? God help me! She gives me courage again, in the end she hugs me tightly. Somehow I feel relieved after sharing this to her.

The time shows 5.30 AM and I have only one hour to reach the airport. Then, I was rushing to prepare myself. I felt little fresh after take that morning shower. It was quick. And I have no idea which dress I should wear for that panic morning. Finally, I find out something.

          I am in hurry and grab my bag and check it just for ensure the usual things in it. Before I leave my room, it is better I go and meet Jamila once again. She looks a little anxiety for me and said,  “Remember, just see him for some minutes only and come back immediately. Please take care and call me every 5 minutes or I will call you..Ok?? And wish you the best and praying for you.” I smile at her and hugged her once again tightly.

Then, I start to rush for a taxi.

The street is empty in the morning. I just want find a taxi which can take me to the airport right away because I should be there soon as possible. My eyes are looking for a taxi in the street, after some minutes I got one.

“Good morning, Madam..”, as unusual warm greeting come from the taxi driver. “Good morning, please to the airport, Sir..” He looks like he understood that I am in a hurry from my face. The taxi starts to move. In some minutes, he tries to break the silence and started to have a small conversation with me. He starts to speak about traffic and weather.

In the end, he asks who is coming. I said my Master… I am a teacher.. (My heart said inside, he is my master of my future life…and smiled). I know in this morning, my conscious is not at the best. And I know I can’t focus on anything right now ; talking to the driver or to anyone! God help me..!! I want to close my eyes for a moment and think well what I am doing right now. I reply to him shortly but I kept a fake smile on my face. May be today is that miracle day of my life!

As my taxi is close to the airport, I can feel more and more my heart is beating now! The same time some thoughts also passing from some fantasy. It is like I am flying high in the clouds with my prince of my life. But suddenly, it brokes my silence.

There is a traffic jam!! Oh not now!! I know the airport road is always has traffic jam. God what should I do now? It looks like I can’t reach there at the right time. More anxiety enters into my being.

I say inside “Move away you all vehicles, give me some space…please...” Then, my taxi moving a little, stops and waiting. The vehicle horns blocking my thoughts.

One moment, I just thought to call Jamila. It is better not now because I don’t want disturb her too much. I want this taxi move from the traffic jam. Then, with my humble voice I ask to the driver, “Sir do you think this traffic jam will remain a long time?” And he says, “Not at all .. Because there is not enough traffic police in the morning. So, I think it is normal, it will be ok.” And yes, I think I have to wait for some couple of minutes. Finally, it looks like we can move.

I said thanks to God. Then I come back to my thoughts. It will be exciting for both when we meet in the first time. What should I ask to him? How was your trip? No..!! That is too formal. How are you? No..!! There is too much freedom in asking. Why did you come? No..!! Even that is not good.

I think I am silent for this moment. The voice of the driver breaks my silent. “Madam, in which terminal gate do you want to go?”

OMG.!!!  I have no idea..!!

Me, “Hmmm……” Then he asks, “The main gate?“

Me, “Yes  ...Thank you.”

Just my taxi got out from the city traffic. It’s moving faster and I am further away from the city crowd now. Oh, I am trembling inside… First time, I am traveling alone to the airport to receive an unknown man. Yes. I know him a lot…he is gentle and sweet too, but in the real life? I don’t know!!

The taxi is turning into another direction from the main road, may be in entering of the airport area. Now, the vast blue sky is visible very well. My eyes are searching his plane in the sky… may be it appears in the sky or it may appears out from the clouds.

It looks like I am close to the terminal now, and I see everywhere vehicles and people around. All these scenes make me more nervous. The taxi  driver looks little confused to park the vehicle. I feel like I am in a strange place now.

[To be continued]